Night Terrors

2:30 in the morning and I can't sleep.

I know exactly why. I found a posting for an audition that I covet greatly, and it comes at a time that seems... well, for lack of a better term: heaven-sent.

I doubt I'll get the audition, but am applying anyway. It would solve many of my frustrations; it would put me back into a facet of my life that I have neglected going on 17 months.

I'm terrified of it. That this rejection might close that door permanently. That this is it - that I've reached my ceiling.

If this is it, then its time to re-examine my life and determine if I'm on the right path.